From all the things pressuring me lately, college, future, job, friends, love, family, like there is anything left to name, I don't understand how people can be so unconsiderable and bring more pressure in my life. I struggle trough these day with a huge rock on my heart and it seems that contrary to the laws of physics, the rock is getting bigger and heavier each day, with my closest ones contributing to my pain, my love and family.
I just want a day without pressure and worries, but this seems so unbelievable and far away. I will give my best to overcome these obstacles in life because I am not a quitter rather a fighter and straggler. I will make it!
nedjelja, 31. kolovoza 2008.
subota, 30. kolovoza 2008.
By Heart
I am struggling with one of my two exams for the second time and am frustrated with the obsolete and inefficient exam method my professor demand. The concept of the exam is based on three essay questions from the material he provided. The reading brick consists of certain titles and explanations that are used as questions in the exam. Bottom line, you need to learn almost all of it by heart and write it in the test in order to get a good grade.
I already passed the test and got the lowest grade. I did try to increase my grade with a oral exam but was reluctantly rejected and told to come in September. So here I am 6 days til the exam, pulling my hair, frustrated and pessimistic about the outcome. Plus, I miss my love... Can things get any worse?
I already passed the test and got the lowest grade. I did try to increase my grade with a oral exam but was reluctantly rejected and told to come in September. So here I am 6 days til the exam, pulling my hair, frustrated and pessimistic about the outcome. Plus, I miss my love... Can things get any worse?
srijeda, 27. kolovoza 2008.
What is going to become of me
Being back in Zagreb and aware that my student days are almost over gives me the shivers every time I think about it. Soon enough I will have to make important decisions that will definitely affect my life in the near future for quite some time, maybe even lifelong.
I am still not sure what I want in life right now... One thing a am sure is that I am still just a kid, a kid that still wants to be a student, and once people around start pouring in pressure and want you to decide upon your future, that kid gets stressed out and just wants to say "Fuck off!!" to the World and continue to be a immature brat dependent and stressless. I understand that the days of immaturity are over and were over for me a long time ago, and if I was a lest bit immature and childish I wouldn't be in this position right now. My lifestyle, morals, beliefs, music I listen to and people I revere tell me otherwise. It is one life, one chance, you got to do it right.
I am still not sure what I want in life right now... One thing a am sure is that I am still just a kid, a kid that still wants to be a student, and once people around start pouring in pressure and want you to decide upon your future, that kid gets stressed out and just wants to say "Fuck off!!" to the World and continue to be a immature brat dependent and stressless. I understand that the days of immaturity are over and were over for me a long time ago, and if I was a lest bit immature and childish I wouldn't be in this position right now. My lifestyle, morals, beliefs, music I listen to and people I revere tell me otherwise. It is one life, one chance, you got to do it right.
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